Now, our guest lecturer has made a lot of title sequences in his life and he is very talented at it. But boy, his talk about how to make good title sequences turned into a realisation that our existence as artists will become extinct in the future if we don't become the best at what we do.
Just a heads up to say I'm exaggerating a lot in this blog post but these were the things I thought of about myself after the lecture.
He hosted two lectures for us, one about making good title sequences, and another which I thought was going to be about title sequences again, but instead it was about the future of creativity and an artist's working environment. How will humans interact with one another? Are we able to get work when robots will soon take over from us? How can I show that my work is better than a robot's and that you should hire me? All this and more was discussed and I had no idea what to think.
Whilst this guy is a nice and interesting creator who has lots of positive thoughts about the future, I looked at this possible future and thought it was scary. Because whilst I practice a lot in order to get better at what I do, I still don't call myself an artist because I don't believe I'm astounding at what I do, let alone the best! And now I can't earn a living if I don't force myself to be the best?
Knowing I'm not the best gives me little confidence when I try to sell myself. The guest lecturer kind of gave advice on how to sell yourself: get talented and have an ego. These two things are good traits to have but I know lots of people who have a hard time becoming either of those things, so just to say 'get talented and have an ego' isn't good advice for introverts who aren't sure if they're talented and don't like having an ego! Sorry sir, you're a great title sequence maker, but stay away from counselling.
This lecture wasn't the only thing that made me think about myself as an 'artist'. A new project set for us this semester, called the experimental project, is a task where we make an experimental animation to show who we are. Again, listening to the subject matter of this project caught me off guard. How do I show myself in an animation?
The problem is, I don't think I want to show who I am in a film and allow anyone to watch it. I have grown in confidence over the years but I don't like being an open book for anyone to put their grubby sticky hands on (that metaphor though). It's ironic since I have a YouTube channel and I'm on lots of social media sites, but on those sites I talk about movies, games, TV Shows, celebrities, media that has made me feel happy whenever I think about it and now I want to share my love for it with the world. If I ever talk to someone about my feelings and traits and beliefs, it shows that I trust the person who is listening. I don't want the entire general public to know! And yeah, it's also ironic since this very blog post is about me telling you my feelings about this topic, but I have a feeling that the people who are reading this will understand me in some way.
I have no idea what to put in this experimental project other than memes, Undertale references and the fact that I spend most of my time slouched in my chair still trying to learn how to shade. I don't believe I'll ever be considered the best at what I do or if I get my dream job. But what I do know is that I'm at least trying to be good at what I do and that if I keep practicing, there's a small chance I could still get to the top.
There was a lot of things I disagreed with the guest lecturer about, but he mentioned an amazing photographer who only started doing photography at age 65! I agree with him that you're never too old to start creating and perfecting things. And because I'm still young (even though I feel really old), I have plenty of time to perfect my craft, and not to force myself to do otherwise.
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